I always wanted to go back in time, to be able to experience the day where I first fell in love with you. It seemed like anything was possible and that the sky was the limit. How sweet it was when I first kissed your lips, how my hairs were standing on their very own tippy toes. At that very second, in that very short moment in time - I was free.. free of doubts, insecurities and stress. That night, as magical as it was.. it killed me. How tragic that a bond so strong and beautiful deteriorate into something so monstrous and vile, but who can I blame? No one. Now, as I sit here cold… lonely.. and sad; the feeling of regret slowing engulfing me, how I despise what we have become. The angelic bond we once called love.. is slowly fading away in the depths of animus. I have so many questions. Why did this happen? What went wrong? Why must love HURT SO MUCH!? As these thoughts linger away in my mind, my heart is now caged, and the questions in which I desperately seek answers for will haunt me… unanswered for eternity.
|—||William Gibson (Via)|
Sooner or later..
As of right now, I’ve come to a conclusion of what I should do with my life.. and boy, it’s going to be a long ride. First and foremost, I’m going to be going back to school, that’s an absolute must. I’ve decided to willfully quit smoking cigarettes to be able to achieve my long-term goals. I would like to squeeze as many years out of my life as possible, using a product that is the #1 leading cause of death isn’t a smart idea, it’s like you’re paying to kill yourself, how stupid. My next step is learning code languages in software and design, take statistics, finance and business administration classes. That’s only a small step until I reach my final destination, I still have a far way to go. I set my goals high and motivation is going to be a key role in this journey of mine. What’s this goal of mine you ask? Well, that’s for me to know and for you to find out.